Update/Diagnosis

Guess it is time for an update... We got John's diagnosis... hepatitis. Not like the contagious kind you can pass through blood this is the non-transferrable kind that just damages the liver till it is dead. Yeah, that sucks.

This whole thing sucks. Ever since the diagnosis John and I havent been the same and it's not right anymore. It really sucks. I use to love the medical field... that's why I am going into nursing, now, it just sucks...

Stupid liver. Stupid diagnosis. Stupid doctors. Stupid everything.

I wish I could just crawl into a hole and let this all pass but then I realize it never will this will always be attacking his liver until he dies............... that sucks.... thats the absolutely worst thing about this. He cant win over this one... why couldnt it have been something that we could have fought....... They can give him meds and make him lose weight but thats not gonna save him... no... nothing can save him....

its not fair and its not okay and its not gonna be okay... im not okay right now... hes not okay right now... we're not okay right now... this sucks....

i cant even think about anything to say to make it seem better in my head... it just sucks...