So I went to the doctor today and let me tell you something... I am SHOCKED... hence the title of this post.
Lets begin with a mini history... I have the circulation of an 85 year old... no offense to all of you 85 year olds out there but the truth is you dont have very good circulation... but I'm in that boat with you!! Anyways. No one, (read: the one doctor that I have gone to in 2003), can figure out why this is.
So anyways I go to him today (read: 30 minute wait, 5 minute appt.), and he does nothing. He figured it would get worse... =O
He orders a venous reflux scan (which I have had before)... Here before I waste my time and money please let me tell you what those results will be... Negative! I don't have reflux... If I had reflux I would have better circulation than an 85 year old... like really?? Really??
Okay moving on... I'll also order some compression stockings (you know those tight knee highs that all the older people wear with shorts, yup, those) and those should help. Well, we've tried that before, just like we've tried the scan and those only aggravate the problem!
Frickin Fantastic! Really! I'm thrilled (read: pissed) that this is your conclusion!
I was in shock. He is doing everything that I have been doing for the past 6 years all over again... I could just cry... I would prefer them to amputate my legs. I would be so happy and I wouldnt have to deal with this pain day in and out. I already have enough things to worry about... I would just like an answer after 6 years!!
August 17, 2009
August 8, 2009
More Info on the Tattoo!
After I posted the last picture I thought... maybe you should have explained that a little better... so here goes.
The tattoo is an ovarian cancer ribbon and the years are the years that both my sister ('02) and mom ('05) were diagnosed. It is on my stomach and it is over my left ovary because that is the ovary that all three of us girls have/ had trouble with. Always the left side... weird... I guess genetics is funny like that.
It is finally starting the final stage of the healing process and it ITCHES SO MUCH!!
I just want it to stop itching. No amount of lotion or Benadryl will make it stop. I am a little leary of putting my Benadryl cream on it... I don't want something to happen to the color. I think I will post another picture after it is completely done peeling and is super pretty. It looks even better now than yesterday!!
I am so excited I got it done but I have to say that is the only one I can ever get! I never expected it to hurt as much as it did but I was a trooper and didn't cry or scream or fidget and I went by myself!!
I give MAJOR kudos to the people who have more than 1 tattoo! I wish I was that brave because I can think of a few more things I would love to get a tattoo of!
Oh well, hope ya'll like it!
The tattoo is an ovarian cancer ribbon and the years are the years that both my sister ('02) and mom ('05) were diagnosed. It is on my stomach and it is over my left ovary because that is the ovary that all three of us girls have/ had trouble with. Always the left side... weird... I guess genetics is funny like that.
It is finally starting the final stage of the healing process and it ITCHES SO MUCH!!
I just want it to stop itching. No amount of lotion or Benadryl will make it stop. I am a little leary of putting my Benadryl cream on it... I don't want something to happen to the color. I think I will post another picture after it is completely done peeling and is super pretty. It looks even better now than yesterday!!
I am so excited I got it done but I have to say that is the only one I can ever get! I never expected it to hurt as much as it did but I was a trooper and didn't cry or scream or fidget and I went by myself!!
I give MAJOR kudos to the people who have more than 1 tattoo! I wish I was that brave because I can think of a few more things I would love to get a tattoo of!
Oh well, hope ya'll like it!
August 6, 2009
tattoo...
This is the Tattoo (I have no idea how to turn pictures so sorry if you sprain your neck looking!):
August 1, 2009
Life is Changing
So I know that the song "I am Changing" by Jennifer Holiday is SUCH A GREAT SONG. But especially now when everything is changing it might be "my song".
It's a pick me up in a way and I love hearing it and thinking of all the things in my life that are changing. Let us see.
1) I finally started making doctors appt's again. Not too excited about it but maybe this time I can get some concerte answers and some new med regimens!
2) I am getting a tattoo! I know CRAZY!! It's totally not me but after I get it I will post a picture and explain the significance behind it. I love it and have been thinking about getting one for many years now! I'm getting it Monday at 1230 so please pray for me that it goes well and is the least painful it can be!
3) I feel so much happier! I don't know what it is, maybe the time that has passed but I don't think about John as much as I did and I feel that I am a little more at piece with the whole situation. (I also talked with a bunch of people I work with and they laid it out for me and told me that I will always have love for him in my heart but I still have to move on feeling like that! That made so much sense and has helped so much!)
4) I am getting a few new neurological symptoms. This probably means nothing to all of you but suffice it to say I was in a coma for 2.5 weeks when I was 11 because of a brain trauma and I have mostly recovered from it but now things are reappearing. I guess I'll just have to learn how to live with them all over again.
Well, for right now that is all I can think about, but I feel like thats a pretty good list. (for now).
Well, I thought an update would be nice! (Maybe I'll post a picture of my new glasses too with the post about my tattoo!)
YAY!! NEW LEASES ON LIFE ARE GREAT!!
It's a pick me up in a way and I love hearing it and thinking of all the things in my life that are changing. Let us see.
1) I finally started making doctors appt's again. Not too excited about it but maybe this time I can get some concerte answers and some new med regimens!
2) I am getting a tattoo! I know CRAZY!! It's totally not me but after I get it I will post a picture and explain the significance behind it. I love it and have been thinking about getting one for many years now! I'm getting it Monday at 1230 so please pray for me that it goes well and is the least painful it can be!
3) I feel so much happier! I don't know what it is, maybe the time that has passed but I don't think about John as much as I did and I feel that I am a little more at piece with the whole situation. (I also talked with a bunch of people I work with and they laid it out for me and told me that I will always have love for him in my heart but I still have to move on feeling like that! That made so much sense and has helped so much!)
4) I am getting a few new neurological symptoms. This probably means nothing to all of you but suffice it to say I was in a coma for 2.5 weeks when I was 11 because of a brain trauma and I have mostly recovered from it but now things are reappearing. I guess I'll just have to learn how to live with them all over again.
Well, for right now that is all I can think about, but I feel like thats a pretty good list. (for now).
Well, I thought an update would be nice! (Maybe I'll post a picture of my new glasses too with the post about my tattoo!)
YAY!! NEW LEASES ON LIFE ARE GREAT!!
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